Jake’s story
From the Darkness
From Trauma and Suicide to a Calm I Didn’t Earn and a Hope I Didn’t Expect
The one that cost the most to write.
Trauma, the night I decided to end it, and the calm that showed up anyway. I didn’t earn it. I didn’t expect it. It came.
The full story
About the Book
This is my story, told without the parts sanded off.
It goes through the trauma, the drinking, the night I had it planned out, and the long unglamorous climb after. It does not skip to the good part. The good part doesn’t mean anything if you skip to it.
If you are in that dark right now, this book won’t hand you a formula. It will hand you a man who was there, telling you the truth about how he got out.
Why I Wrote It
Because I almost didn’t make it, and nobody was talking about it in a way I could hear.
Every testimony I’d read was polished. Mine wasn’t polished. I needed one man to say the ugly version out loud so I’d know I wasn’t uniquely broken.
Nobody did it for me. So I did it for you.
Before you read
A Prayer
God, I don’t know how to want to live right now. Sit with me until I do. Don’t leave. Amen.
